1.28.2016

Our Almost Two Year Old...

As I sit here, thinking this time two years ago, I was having full blown contractions. As I'm holding my almost two year old, I'm not sure where time has gone. Where have all these precious, fleeting moments gone? I don't think two years have ever gone so quickly!!! 

1.27.2016

{maternity style}

So as you've read, I had the fun opportunity of collaborating with Pink Blush Maternity last week!  It was SO fun!

I honestly LOVE maternity style!

1.24.2016

{a mommy must have!!! • a pink blush maternity review}

**Below are my opinions, and my opinions only, regarding the Pink Blush Charcoal Alternating Striped Nursing Cover/Scarf.  This is a collaboration/review that I agreed to do for the clothing company Pink Blush Maternity.  Any of my opinions or give away done in collaboration to this blog post are in no way associated with blogger, google, or Instagram.  


Loving this scarf!
So, mamas - as a second time mommy there are very few things that I consider a must have that I don't already own!  If you've been through one kiddo, you soon realize there's not much in the NEED column like you had once thought.  However, if you plan to nurse and don't feel super comfortable public nursing, but would like to not have to go hide out to nurse - a good nursing cover is a must! 




I love layering in maternity styles! 

This piece - a nursing cover/scarf has been on my must have list since one of my dear friends started using one. And mamas - there are SO many uses for this adorable accessory!!! Not only does this piece make for an adorable scarf, but there are at least three other clever uses! This one piece will seriously mark three things off your registry!  Sounds too good to be true, right?

So, needless to say - when I had the opportunity to review this product for Pink Blush Maternity, I jumped at it!!! 
I had been looking around for a good quality nursing cover/scarf since my first trimester, and they were all so expensive! Pink Blush Maternity has so many patterns to choose from, the quality is amazing and the price? ... So affordable!

Another casual option for styling
as a scarf!
So let's get down to it. There are all things we look for in products, right?  Fair warning, I'm pretty much in love with this nursing cover, and I think it is just the best thing...

Quality
I'm going to be completely honest for a moment. When I saw how affordable these nursing covers/scarves are through Pink Blush, and agreed to collaborate with them (meaning I'm putting my word on this item), I was so worried about the quality. How could something that is so expensive everywhere else be so affordable AND good quality through this company?! Well. I am more than pleasantly surprised!  The fabric is soft, thick yet breathable so that baby doesn't get too warm. I also feel it will wear well over time and be quite durable! I would compare this fabric to a soft, cozy summer weight blanket! 

Cost
I already mentioned this above, but the cost of this item is so affordable!  Not to mention it will allow you to mark three things off your registry for less than the normal price of one of those items!

Style/Popularity:
These are SO in right now! Which, honestly, is another reason it was on my must have list! If all these mamas on social media and other mommy blogs are using them, they must be legitimately great, right?!

Usefulness:
The "do I really need this?" factor... As a second time mama there are a couple things I've learned the hard way: 

• the apron nursing covers (the ones that have the loop that goes around your neck and then just fabric in the front) don't cover you completely. I used these through my first little one's nursing season because I didn't know anything like this nursing cover existed!  • the car seat covers that loop on to the handle of the carseat wave in the wind and often flap open or fall off.  • & the shopping cart covers... oh goodness.  Don't get me started on that one.  Let's just say I gave my not cheap brand shopping card cover away for free.  I used it once and it wasn't a fan.

This nursing cover wraps all the way around you, fully covering you while nursing.  
This car seat cover snugly fits around the car seat and handle, so it isn't going to blow away or fall off. 
This shopping cart cover isn't bulky, it will stay on snugly, and is easy to get on and off. 
Harper showing off baby sister's car seat with the scarf
as a car seat cover.
She was really wanting Baby Hayden to be inside!
Harper is SO ready for her baby sister to be here!

This normally would make me cringe!  Another option
with this scarf saves you from all those yucky
shopping cart germs!

Harper loved having a "blanket" as she called it
on the cart with her.  She kept saying, "sooo comfy!"

As I have now had this piece in full use for almost three months (my second daughter was born on March 11th!), I can honestly say I NEVER leave home without it! Like ever. I've literally turned around, gone home, and grabbed it when I've forgotten it.  I absolutely love this piece and recommend it to any nursing mama out there! I've mostly used it as a carseat cover and a nursing cover the last few months...but that's what I love - even as my little one grows, there's still so many uses for this ONE item! ♥


Please head on over to my instagram and enter for an amazing $75.00 giveaway through Pink Blush!  This gift certificate can be used on their regular website or their maternity website.  Just in time to get an adorable outfit for Valentines Day!!
Rules: 
1• Follow me on instagram (@blessed.mama)
2• Comment on this blog post. 

3• Tag a friend on the instagram post for an extra entry! 

Give away will end at 9pm Mountain time on Tuesday, January 26th.  Winner must provide me with an email address to send the certificate to.  This is sponsored by Pink Blush Maternity - not myself! 

** all pictures in this post are property of Blessed Mama's Life and Pink Blush Maternity only!

1.21.2016

{the healing side...}

Of miscarriage.

My heart breaks every time I see some one post about loss. 

I've been there. Twice. 

It is quite literally the hardest thing I've ever been through. 

Emotionally. 
Physically.
& even in our marriage. 

The first two are obvious. The third one - don't be surprised if your husband is sad, there for you, but not quite as shattered as you are. Especially if it's a first trimester loss. For men, a lot of times they don't begin bonding with the baby until they see your body changing and sometimes not until the baby is born. While mommys typically bond with our babies as soon as we see those pink lines. Within minutes we envision a whole life for our child. And that doesn't include miscarriage. 

What I can tell you is this - one day you'll heal physically. One day you'll probably scream at your husband in anger... Anger that he's ok and you aren't. Anger at God. Anger for just anger's sake!!! And then.... One day you'll heal emotionally. 

The later took longer for me. A lot longer. 

Then one day I realized without that loss there would be no Harper. And as much as I mourn the loss of our first (& third) pregnancy, the world needed this precious little girl. I may not understand the reason for miscarriage but I do understand that the world needed this amazing little girl, which just happened to be my second pregnancy - and since she was conceived three weeks after our loss - she never would've happened if we hadn't had that loss. That is so hard for me to wrap my mind around. But I can understand that we needed her. Our family needed her. Our world is a better place because she's in it!! And trust me- so is yours!! 

She's a world changer. She already prays for her family and friends and thanks Jesus for you all!! Her heart is so pure and bigger than big!! Her compassion runs deep and the joy that flows out of her is contagious!! 

I am so thankful that I have two heavenly children that I haven't officially met. Their little lives are so special and meaningful to my husband and I!! For they had our hearts from that first positive pregnancy test!!

But I can say - the healing on the other side is a little surprising.  Surprising in that I thought I'd mourn forever... that my heart would remain broken.  But when I found purpose in God's plan, and in His ultimate plan for our story, I found ultimate healing.  And I am so thankful!!

I constantly pray for all mommys that walk this same path.  So, if that's you today - if you are reading this and wishing and longing to be on the other side of this process - know you are prayed over and most definitely, not alone!


1.20.2016

{mamahood thoughts...}

Today is a day I'm tempted to think I'm getting this mom at home thing figured out!! 

Today my toddler has made me feel like the toddler whisperer!!! 

Anyone else let a two year old dictate their mood and how you feel about your mom skills? Um. Me?! Pretty much every day. It's something I need to work on for sure!! 

But today - the toddler is sleeping. The dishes & kitchen have remained clean all day. I've somehow still had time to use teachable moments & read lots of books!!! I even got mommy things done: like phone calls about our old matress pick up (seriously - what do people do with their old mattresses?!), appointments made, and address lists made. We found a good rhythm today!!

It's these days we must celebrate and write down - because these days are golden. The days that make the fit throwing, exhausted, food stained clothes, no shower days oh so more than  worth it!!

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mommy golden find:  Harper is obsessed with a couple of YouTube videos!! One being a Jesus loves me lullabye!! It's pure magic friends!!!!! Nap time is sooo easy with it!! 


a new mommy/daddy rule: nap time is two hours. No matter if she sleeps that long or not. & it's saving our sanity!!! My brilliant hubby!! 

1.19.2016

{31 weeks & big sister stuff}

yes.  it's amazing! i can still see my feet!!
Here we are... Sailing right in to the 8th month.

This pregnancy has been challenging, yet it is still passing way too quickly! 

I had a doctors appointment today (it was suppose to be my 29week appointment, but was rescheduled). 

It's always reassuring hearing my sweet little Hayden's heartbeat!! 

I was thrown for a loop when my doctor said that my two week appointments begin now and then my weekly. And that I needed to call the hospital to do our pre-admittance appointment. I'm sorry, WHAT??? Aren't we still at like 20weeks?!


Goodness!!! 

So at 31 weeks, at my appointment today....

• I'm measuring at 30 weeks, but we weren't surprised. Harper was (& still is) teeny too! 

• I officially passed my glucose test, by tons!!! I was shocked since I barely passed it with Harper! 

• I've only gained 12lbs!! Woohoo!! At 1lb  a week from here on out - that puts me at just a little over 20lbs - which is about 5lbs less than I gained with Harper. I'll take it!!! 

• got the whooping cough vaccine. So tomorrow my arm is going to be killing me!!! But!! It's the best protection for my little one! I made the same choice when I was pregnant with Harper. 

• I'm anemic. Ugh. More vitamins. They said I just need to get it under control before delivery. So we stocked up on vitamins today! & oh darn... I have to eat a lot of red meat. Bring on the steaks!!!! 

• I made all my appointments until the week after my due date. Talk about a wake up call!!! 

After the appointment today, we went to
a brand new restaurant (it's not even open for regular business yet) with my mother in law for lunch. It was so yummy!!! It's healthy, organic, and has tons of gf & df options! Win-win!!! Then headed over to look at some model homes. It has been an awesome day!  Now my little one is napping, all cuddled up next to me, as I blog and sip on some Dr Pepper!! ❤️ life is good friends!!! 

In Harper news, I had to sit her in time out this morning for the first time in quite a few days!! I was so sad - we had been on another angel child streak! Well. Then the two year old-going on 16 broke out the attitude this morning. And well. We refuse to let her act like that. So to time out she went. It broke her little heart. She got it!! And I even got to throw in the "how sad that your in time out... You haven't been in time out in so long!!!" I've been working with her so much on "bad choices" and "good choices" and their consequences. It could totally be a fluke, but it seems to be sinking in. At least this week! After the time out she needed some hugs and then it was like a whole new kid showed up!

She is starting to really want "baby Hayden" to come out now!! She asks if baby Hayden can sit next to her a lot. It's so adorable!!! And I'm quite in love with how she says Hayden!! 

Everyone tells me how full our hands will be having two girls so close in age. I mean really, I don't consider them to be super close in age - 23ish months. I know people with kiddos a lot closer. I'm personally so excited that we will have two girls so close!! Will we be busy?... I'm sure of it!! But these girls will always have one another and for that I am already so proud!! 

1.18.2016

{5 lessons learned in 2015}

I've blogged a bit about 2015 lately.  There are just some memories I definitely want to capture and even more so - some lessons learned in 2015! We learned so much!! Our word for 2015 was growth, and God did not disappoint!  I started out the year (like even before midnight), with a heavy heart, fearful that my ambitions for my life were never going to come to pass.  Rob and I stayed up, praying, crying and praying some more.  Well friends, I can honestly say - by the end of 2015 God had answered our prayers!!! Our family was growing.  I am home so much with Harper.  Really - I am amazed!
Here are some quick (but not so easy or quickly learned) lessons I learned in 2015....

Faith: 
I watched God clearly answer our prayers last year. I saw his hand work and I saw his plan unfold. There are times I truly find myself questioning God and wondering how in the world certain things could be better than my own plan. Because I of course know what's best, right? That's my flawed human nature.  Because when it come right down to it, his plans are perfect.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 


Strength:   in 2015, I was yet again reminded of strength.  Not only my own personal strength, but the strength of my marriage.  We went through heartbreak and a lot of change in 2015.  I can honestly say, my husband only loved me bigger and better through all of it!  Was our marriage perfect in 2015 - no way!  But I really do think we stood strong - tried and tested - yet victorious!  What the enemy intended to tear us apart, only brought us closer together!
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.


Let it go: my first and second trimesters took up the last half of 2015.  This pregnancy has been more challenging than I had hoped, energy and just feeling good wise.  I learned to let things go.  If I needed to lay on the couch and let Harper watch 2 dora the explorers, it was ok!  If the dishes stayed dirty, it was ok.  If Harper pulled everything out of her room, into our living room - as long as she was having fun and staying occupied while I was able to rest - it was ok!  I have learned to chose my battles and not try to control every little thing.  Sometimes we will have movie/pj days instead of super clean house/preschool days and that's ok!
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;  and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.


Provision:  I quickly learned in 2015 that God cared about even the littlest things in our lives.  He has provided abundantly for us in 2015!  We couldn't be more blessed! 
And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

Discipline: A lot of things changed for us in 2015.  We quickly became part of a tight knit church family.  Which in turn, has provided a lot of discipline in our lives - discipline to get up and go to church every Sunday, discipline to tithe, discipline to be in God's word, and discipline to show Harper how to walk with Christ.  Were we doing all these things before?  Sure - but we were in no way disciplined about them!  If we woke up on Sunday and were tired or Harper was having a bad morning, we just didn't go to church.  Now we have a little girl that LOVES going to church every morning.  Again - are we perfect at this - no way! But we are definitely learning the importance of discipline and the spiritual warfare that goes on all around us that we are often times oblivious to!
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

1.17.2016

{milestones}

Harper has become sooo excited about church!! In fact, when Rob and I are both home in the mornings she assumes it's a church day & has started asking, "go to church? Play with friends?" It's so cute!!! Just lately Rob's schedule has been different so we've both been home in the mornings more and she's been a little confused haha. 

But anyway, today we got a compliment from her teacher that just made my day!!! It took me back to a season that dropping her off on her class was miserable!! 

One of her teachers said, "I wish they all were this easy!!!" As Harper walked right in to her class and started playing. 

Rob and I both laughed!!! Because about 6 months ago, I dreaded church - I chose not to go sometimes - because leaving your child as she's crying is hard! I know from working in early childhood it's part of development - and logically I knew it was ok - ok to walk away with her crying - we needed to teach her that if mommy and daddy left we would come back. But that didn't make it easier. It was hard. But when we started our new church, the timing was perfect - the teachers are super consistent and life got so much easier!! Harper loves her teachers!! 

So today, All of a sudden I realized I went from being the mom leaving her screaming child to the moms I use to look at and wonder how they did it - how it was that easy. 

I have to give all the credit to Harper and her teachers!! ❤️

& on the Hayden front - she moves and grooves all through worship!! Harper use to do the exact same thing. It just warms my heart - it is as if their little souls already know their savior - the one who knitted them together in my womb!! & I just love it!! 

1.13.2016

{dear cosleeping mama}

I've seen a few cosleeping guilt posts lately, and even have a friend that is concerned she's making some bad habits with her second little bundle of joy - as he sleeps best right by her side, and she loves it too!! This was SO us with Harper. I loved it. Even in the hospital, the nurse came in and suggested ever so not subtly to put Harper back in her bassinet when we had both fallen asleep. I just always felt complete with her right in my arms. I wish I had a picture of us sleeping when she was tiny... I'd basically cocoon myself around her in full on cuddle. It was heaven!!! 
I swore I'd never let my kids sleep with me.  I was going to sleep train them! I had even said Harper would be in her own bed by the time she was a month old! Then Harper melted into my arms and I never wanted to put her down... literally.  
Anyway... Since I've seen a lot of cosleeping guilt and questions lately, I thought I'd break out a post I did over 8 months ago - when we were in the transition out of cosleeping. I loved cosleeing, especially at the beginning... the transition to her bed - not so much, but the months leading up to that were precious!  My mom group talks a lot about this.  In fact, we've talked about everything from other moms belittling us, to moms who have done sleep training that feel guilty that they didn't want to do cosleeping.... all across the board.  And when it comes right down to it, mamas - none of us have all the absolute answers!  In example, a conversation I had with a sleep training mom the other day - she had been shamed by a cosleeping mom for letting her child cry it out and was feeling guilty - I then told her not to worry, that all us cosleeping moms are secretly jealous that sleep training kids will fall asleep on their own, in their own beds, without a fuss - to which she replied, secretly all sleep training moms are jealous that cosleeping kids will cuddle on end and all that precious time we get with our littles. 
none of us have it all figured out. 
dear cosleeping mama,
Everyone has their opinions don't they? I'm here to say, don't listen to the naysayers. If it is best for you and your baby and your family, then don't listen to anyone else. All the "sleep trainers" and the "cry it out" moms... don't judge them either.  We all do what works best.  Like you, for us, it was cosleeping.
Cosleeping provides you with
  • More Bonding Time
  • Easier Night Time Nursing
  • Better/Longer Sleep
  • Endless night time snuggles
  • and a baby that will (more than likely) fall asleep on you in public, making others wonder "how you do it"…
  • studies also show, your baby will actually feel more secure, leading to more independence, it promotes healthy breathing, and improves baby's heart health as well!  And think about it... he/she is use to being inside your womb.  why WOULDN'T sleeping right next to you help with all these and more?!
As we are transitioning away from cosleeping, and our little snuggler sleeps in her own bed, all night… only coming in our bed for good morning snuggles, I miss those night time snuggles, falling asleep with her rubbing my face.  Enjoy it. Your baby won't be a baby forever! & don't worry about what anyone else says.  I wouldn't trade that extra bond I have with our H for anything!!  

Enjoy these sweet cuddles while you can, mama!! Don't second guess yourself, what you feel in your heart is good for you, your baby, and your family!  And if you do wake up one day second guessing yourself - look at the research and all the benefits you little one gets from cosleeping!  The list is endless! 

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So many have asked... will we cosleep this time around?  Definitely!! But my goal is to do an altered version!...My vision is not as much bed sharing.  Have you seen the neat "side car" cribs on pinterest?  My HOPE (yeah, we'll see... remember when I said above that I'd never cosleep, ha!) is that Hayden will like her crib this way! and the transition to her room will be easier.  Harper HATED her crib.... like she never slept in it, hated it! So we will see!  Rob and I are going to get our room all rearranged and set up within the next couple of weeks!  SO exciting! 

 

1.11.2016

{when did that happen?!}

So, here I lay - in my toddler's twin bed with her. Helping her fall asleep for the night. 

It's no secret- we interrupted our normally close to perfect days for some pretty tough days the past 5 days or so!! ... Mostly my fault. I've had some rough pregnancy days- just not feeling well, which equates to a grumpy, impatient mommy without much energy and a lot of tv for Harper. Just not a good combo. Plus then I feel guilty for not actually teaching her anything and not facilitating a fun, learning environment- which leads to more grumpiness. Ugh. Anyway. 

She and I had a great evening tonight. Daddy is working late - Harper requested pizza for dinner. It was just a low key mommy/Harpie night. 

One of her new things to do, while falling asleep - is to wrap her arms around my neck, and repeat "I love you soooo muuch mommy!!! Soooo much!!" It melts my heart!!

Tonight, as she was doing this - I thought of quite a few months back - around 3months - maybe 8 months, when she had to rub my face to get to sleep. 

I'm still laying here, trying to remember when that stopped!!! When was the last night I was her human security blanket? How did that stop without it breaking my heart?! 

Have you all seen the video  Facebook floating around Facebook?.. 

It will rip your mommy heart out and shred it into pieces!!!! 

How do these moments go by so fast? & often without us even knowing it's a "last"... 

1.09.2016

{honesty time...}

Ok. Honest blog time. 

It's Saturday morning. Husband is already at work. I've told Harper to leave the dog/cat/vacuum/chips (the list goes on) alone, what seems ten jillion times. She's been in time out 4 times already!!! She usually isn't in time out that much in one day! They are becoming less and less effective. What's next??? 

Today is a day I need an attitude adjustment fast!! Like 2hours ago! 

I should've known when the morning started with Harper flailing her head at my cheek bone with the force of a million grown men!! 

I feel stressed - our baby will be here in a matter of a couple months, our house is a mess (ok not really too bad) but I feel like it just needs to be CLEANED (nesting much?!) but every inch of me is sore because Hayden is pushing and shoving and prodding me. 

Which leads me to my next freak out thought... How am I going to do this mom thing with a newborn & Harper?! I love her, she's perfect but she can be a handful!! 

So I had a little cry - a little (ok a lot) of coffee, & now Harper and I are cuddling and watching Sophia!! Deep breaths!! 

Here's to mom life! The prefect days and the not so perfect days ... And the days you just feel like you need to start over!! 



1.08.2016

{currently...}

I am/have been currently....

 

Blogging...

I know.  duh.  But I've been attempting to blog almost every day.  Even the little stuff.  I'm attempting to turn to blogging rather than the mainstream social media.  It just makes more sense.
I'm also trying to decide the direction I want this blog to go.  Do I want to keep it as more of a "journal" blog?  Do I want to continue to make it mostly a "mommy" blog?  I read the other day, that one thing that helped someone grow their blog is when they ventured outside the "mommy blog box"... it stopped me in my tracks.  I mean, that's basically why I blog - as a sort of memory keeping of my days as a mommy and wife.  So while I'm ok with that, sure I've had aspirations of growing my blog and actually making some money doing this.  So for now... I'll keep on just doing as I'm doing... mommy blogging.  and see where my passions take me.

Enjoying...

We have really been enjoying the last bit of this season of life!  The time when we are a family of three, all home together, is so enjoyable!  I know I will miss it!  I'm not saying that once Hayden gets here, life won't be wonderful.  But I remember clearly missing, occasionally, the moments when it was easy and just the two of us after Harper was born.

Today, we woke up to about 5 inches of snow... the white, fluffy, pretty kind!  Rob just happened to be home with us for half of the day today, so we cuddled in bed extra long, sipped on coffee, watched the snow fall out of our bedroom window, and just breathed it all in!  After breakfast, we all bundled up and headed out side with Rob to shovel snow... well, he shoveled and we threw snowballs at him.  He and Harper made snow angels.  Harper and Lilly chased one another around.  We attempted a snowman...but the snow is soooo powdery and fluffy!  Maybe tomorrow after it gets a little more damp!

 

Planning...

Or the lack there of... Harper's second birthday.  This one is going to be much different than the last.  Her last was full of pinterest ideas and just well, adorable... if I do say so myself.  This year, it will be cute, it will be fun - but I don't even know when we are having it yet.  ha!  She will have store bought cupcakes, decorations (maybe), and probably just family.  This mama is tired! 

Growing....

Today was the first day that Harper sat in my lap to read a book that I noticed Hayden was obviously in the way and taking up lap room.  It was cute, sad, and uncomfortable all at the same time!!!  I counted today, and if she is 2 weeks early like Harper - we have 9weeks left.  TWO MONTHS PEOPLE!!! like not skimping, not rounding, not averaging... two months! 


 

 

 Creating...

Rob had a magnificent idea a week or so ago, to turn our underneath the stairs closet into a "playhouse" for the girls!!  While the fact that the storage in that area will go away gives me a little anxiety, haha, I'm so excited!  And I'm even more excited to see him so excited about it!  He and Harper went shopping yesterday for supplies.  And he and his dad will be working on it this weekend and the beginning of next week.  SO EXCITING!!! 

 

 

 

Making a Mess....

I think I might have shared that Harper's new favorite thing is to take EVERYTHING from her room and put in in our living room.  Well, now she and daddy have started making "tents"!  She loves it! But man oh man is it messy!! haha!  But I clearly remember making tents with my dad when I was little and it was some of my best memories! So here's to making memories!!



1.07.2016

{I get paid for this....}

I've talked so much lately about how I love staying home with my girl (soon to be girls) and how blessed I am, which is so true!!

But I do feel the need to also be thankful for the job I put a few hours into every week as well!! 

They help me keep my sanity. 

I am so blessed & God is so good!! When  I do get up and leave the house to work I get to head right down the road, not even a mile, to our church and contribute to a ministry I believe so strongly in!!!... Not to mention it's fun!! 

Gods hand on my life to get me here - to motherhood. To staying home. To working at our church. All of it. It's just amazing!! 

So as I sit here, sipping my Starbucks that my hubby brought me in the snow, by a warm cozy fireplace- I will just remain in my thankfulness. Because yes. I have the very best of both worlds. 


{28 & 29 weeks}

28 weeks... and the only picture Rob got of me
without Harper begging me to hold her ♥
wow. i can't believe time is flying by so quickly!!  March seems to be getting closer and closer!... like scary, yet super exciting close!  Hayden is SO active!... maybe it's all the caffeine? ha.  i'm joking.  kind of.

but in all seriousness... i feel like she's already running out of room!  i told rob last night that i don't remember getting these kind of jabs and full on spring board kicks from Harper until the last month.  this girl is strong!!! i know i've gained weight... i can see it in my face and well... of course the belly bump, but i feel like rather than that i haven't gained much.  we will see in a couple weeks at our next doctors appointment (yeah. we don't own a scale. ha!)  Hayden seems to be more in my ribs than Harper ever was!   People have started saying, "wow I am finally starting to believe your pregnant" or "it's about time that baby belly started showing"... so apparently I've "popped" haha.  She's pushing out front again, making a cute little basketball and I'm loving it!!!

And talk about out of breath!! i feel like i need to stretch my body out or push her down sometimes to breathe.  it's craziness.  i'm enjoying all her movement though!  all these lasts... they break my heart yet my heart overflows all at the same time! 



Time is flying and the bump is growing!!!



we continue to jump into planning mode.  even though we are holding off on big decoration decisions until much later.  see my last post about how hard this is for me, ha!  but we continue to look for bed frames for Harper.  i think i found one at walmart (cheap!!) that i like.. we'll see. it's kind of going a different direction than i had originally planned. 
but oh, so cute!

there's not really much else new on the pregnancy front.  i go in for my glucose test next week.  ugh.  i'm really hoping my sugar dropping doesn't wreak havoc on me like it did last time. 

Harper continues to seem to understand more and more that baby Hayden or baby sisterrrr is coming before too long.  every once in awhile she will tell me something isn't baby Hayden's or isn't baby's.  ha.  this could be interesting.  our little princess.  i'm honestly not too sure how she's going to do about sharing mama! but for her birthday we have a whole 'baby set' for her... so hopefully that will help - she can do all the same things with her baby as mam is with baby Hayden.  fingers crossed!!! ♥

1.06.2016

{our girls' room}

So I posted awhile back that our girls are going to be sharing a room... Eventually anyway.

A few weeks ago I started organizing their closet. And last weekend I got Harper's baby clothes out and washed them, and put them away for Hayden. 

From the beginning I've said we'd wait to put the crib and baby stuff up in their room - keeping things as consistent for Harper as long as possible- because we will cosleep for awhile. And the way our house is set up... we have two bedrooms upstairs and one down.  I really don't feel comfortable with either one of the being by themselves downstairs or both by themselves upstairs, yet.

But it is getting sooo hard!!! I can't wait to decorate their room!!! We will keep some of the decor but I'm excited to make new things and rearrange. I'm about to go crazy haha!! I'm such an over planner - waiting isn't something I'm good at. At all.

and the thing that is also SO exciting... my mom has a machine that makes vinyl lettering... OH.MY.CREATIVENESS!!! I'm so excited haha.  I seriously sent her about a jillion pins yesterday!  My only problem now... I need more wall space for all these projects spewing out of me!! And... the right time to actually start doing them! oy!  Yesterday I was spazing out... saying, mom! do you realize all the things you could do with that??!!

So... Want see some of my favorite Pinterest ideas right now?! Please just click on the pictures to be redirected to the actual site or the pinterest link (some of the links didn't work directly from the sites)! ♥  These amazing mamas deserve the credit for the hardwork they put into these rooms!


Ok.  This room!  Minus all the pink.  This
will more than likely be our set up.  The
room isn't huge, so we will need to make use
of the space best possible.  
 




Oh... and I'm seriously thinking we might do away with the changing table (insert shocked face here...).  Good idea?  Bad idea?  yikes.  I'm not sure.  I mean, you don't HAVE to change a babies diaper on a changing table, right?!

So.  this picture.  I'm on the look out for a shabby
bed frame for Harper's bed!  My plan is to paint it
a similar color as these and do the same for when Hayden
is bigger - if they still want to share a room. 


Ok.  you guys.  the polka dots.  the bumtings
above the beds.  the iron beds.  everything about
this room screams my taste!  


I'm a bit obsessed with two kinds of beds:  jenny lind beds and antique iron beds.  The iron beds scare me.  Walmart even has some "replicas" that are super cheap as well as Ikea.  But.  well.  Harper is a bed jumper.  not that a wooden frame won't hurt too... but.  I don't know. 

the simple design of this room makes
my heart happy!  i wish i was better at the simple decor.
mine usually takes on a little more of this.....

which I also happen to love.  But you can see the
difference.  ♥ 
Ok.  So there are some of my favorites for now! I have a lot pinned publicly and some privately... but Feel free to check out the inside of my brain the next few months on my pinterest boards! ♥ 

1.05.2016

{the good days...}

So, I already blogger this morning about just how blessed I am!!!
But you know those days that everything just seems to click?  As a mom, you begin to learn those are a little more scarce than you'd like! And if you have a few in a row and you naively begin to think you have this motherhood thing figured out... Well.... Hahahaha!  Yeah. Entering from stage left - the biggest breakdown from your child in your life as a mom. Ha! I've learned to never think I have this thing figured out. Ever.

But today.  Today, everything just clicked, and left me wondering - why can't every day be this way?  Which I know the answer - I have an almost two year old.  I'm 7 1/2 months pregnant.  It's just a crazy combo for any normalcy.

But today our energy levels have matched a bit more and it helped that her daddy was home with us a bit this morning too-  he normally heads into work around 7.

So this morning, we snuggled in bed extra long and headed out to breakfast!  I'm a sucker for biscuits and gravy and well - when you have a hubby that's trying to stick to a gluten free/dairy free diet, you just don't make those at home.  So what a treat!

We got home and Harper was in the PERFECT tot school mood!! She wasn't in the crazy, not listening, just want to dump all my toys out, mood that most toddlers are in a lot of the time!


So mommy broke out the kinetic sand!  That led to talking about noah (the sand was blue like water) and the ark and all the animals.

So we broke out her noah's ark and the animals to play in the blue sand.

Then we listened to one of her favorite youtube songs about Noah (she's a bit obsessed with noah and the ark right now... the animals two by two, etc).

Then that led into more playing with her Noah's Ark.  and eventually a craft and practicing gluing and cutting!




putting dots on her rainbow!

practicing cutting... these are VERY child friendly scissors!
and she's always supervised with them ♥


Again... why can't every morning be like this???

Reading her Noah's Ark Book!

Dancing with a YouTube Toddler Exercise Video

Here's to the almost perfect days!! & even to the not so perfect days! I'll take them all. Being a mommy is so fun!! ... Whether it's a day filled with time outs and pushing & testing boundaries or a day of tot school fun! 
❤️xoxo

{breakfast, cheezy smiles, & breakfast soda}

These moments!!!

I'm so thankful that we get to have these moments together as a family!! 

Breakfast. On a Tuesday. 

These ordinary moments that make up this extraordinary life I've been so blessed with... I hope I never take them for granted!! 




Thankful!!

And thankful for yummy biscuits and gravy, my loves, and of course sonic breakfast sodas on the way home ❤️ 

And now for coloring, pretend play with doc mcstuffins and Sophia stuff, and of course lots and lots of cuddles!!! 

Have a great day everyone!!! 

1.04.2016

{our best conversation of 2015}

As I am finished writing this and read back over it, I realize it is much more like a journal entry... something I want to remember.  Enjoy a peak into my memories ;)

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On NYE, we played a fun game with our friends - passing around a box with questions in it - we each had to answer and then choose someone else to answer.

I STINK at on the spot things.  Like awful.  My mind freezes up.  If you give me even 5 minutes to compile my thoughts I'm usually good. But on the spot... oy!

So one question I got, that I loved:  "what was your best conversation of 2015?"

wow.  we had a lot of great ones last year!!! we had a lot of decisions to make and I'm so proud to say we did them together! a lot of planning, praying, arguing, crying, and deep conversations happen in our home, between Rob and I late at night, in our room.  It use to drive my husband crazy that I always wanted to have these kinds of talks at like 11pm, ha!  But I'm pretty sure he has gotten use to it now, after 5 1/2 years of marriage! 

My top two favorite conversations:  

  1. When we decided to for sure try for another baby... or basically not- NOT try.  
  2. When we began praying, discussing, and planning on steps to take so I could stay home. 

Both of these discussions were life changing.  They were both dream conversations.  They were both discussions filled with excitement, prayer, and tears!! 

The - ok, we are ready to have another baby discussion was actually had AFTER we found out we were pregnant and had a miscarriage.  Because - you see - that pregnancy was a surprise!! So when we lost that baby, it was time to reevaluate.  I think, if anything, the loss made us realize we were ready! And it is a bittersweet memory.  This, more than likely, will be our last pregnancy - so it was more than likely a last conversation of this type! We really feel our family will be complete after Hayden is born!  We discussed with some friends on new years even - if we are REALLY done.  They have four and aren't certain they are.  We sat there with about 90% certainty that we are indeed done.  We've discussed a few times, briefly, if we feel led to adopt or foster children since we feel we are finished having biological children.  And honestly.  We aren't. God hasn't put that in our hearts at this time. Would we be open to it on down the road?  Possibly.  But right now, our focus is our girls.  God has blessed us with two amazing little ladies - just like He blesses many families with adoptive or foster children, and we feel we need to heed that calling right now - to love on our girls and guide them with the wisdom God blesses us with.  I LOVE the idea of adoption.  It is so biblical it gives me goosebumps!  And quite frankly, I'm surprised I have gotten a red light on that from God, because I have often seen that in my future. But I can honestly say, I am at SO much peace knowing that God wants us to be a family of four.  And that, my friends, is just amazing!!   

Secondly, our conversation discussing and planning for me staying home.  This wasn't just a one time conversation.  This was a huge leap of faith, friends!  This took a lot of praying, processing a lot of doubt, and a supportive husband that said "we will make it work!"  You see, when your life purpose is to be a mom - a stay at home mom - nothing else fills that void.  Not even the best, amazing paying, job!  To say I took a pay cut would be an understatement. It is laughable! I worked for a very successful franchising company.  I helped train our franchisees to run their businesses.  It was a fun job.  But it is not what my heart wanted to be doing.  I even cut back on hours, my boss was amazingly understanding - they gave me a lengthy maternity leave - they wanted to keep me.  But.  again.  my calling in life is to raise these amazing little ladies and be the 'housewife' I always wanted to be! I wanted to be home with them. Teaching them. raising them! So we prayed.  a lot.  A lot of discussions.  A LOT of support from my husband.  He's pretty amazing!! I really owe this dream come true to him (& of course God).  I say it often - he makes my dreams come true every day!  I have a feeling the next big discussion down the road will be homeschool vs. charter school.  And, really... I'm not sure where I stand with it.  I'm SO thankful I still have a few years to pray about that one!

I can't even begin to tell you how thankful I am to have a husband that supports our family - he works so hard.  Ladies.  if you are a stay at home mom, with your husbands support - you need to give him some extra love when he gets home.  It takes a special man.  A special man, that even if I've cleaned the house 5 times a day but when he comes home it's messy - he says thank you anyway, that even when he still does his own laundry most of the time because you're tired, pregnant, and chasing around a toddler and he never complains.  That is a good man ladies!

So, in short (or not so...) my two favorite conversations of 2015 happen to also be our two biggest decisions of 2015 ♥  and they make my heart soar! So many of my childhood dreams have come true and it's more amazing than I ever could imagine!  I'm so thankful for God's unfailing plan in my life!!!

1.03.2016

{daughters}


Today has already been one of the good kind!! We had church a little later today, so the three of us just got to hang out and relax for awhile this morning - where normally Sunday mornings are a bit chaotic rushing out the door. I was humming "easy like Sunday morning" all morning!!  Then church. Wow. You know when you just feel like you are right on track - like God is speaking right at you!?! Our vision for the year couldn't have matched up better with the worship and message. It was SO encouraging. My heart was over flowing!! 

But. 

You guys!!! I have so much to do today!! 

But here I sit, sipping on Starbucks, watching my sweet Harper nap, feeling my precious Hayden kick away in my tummy. 

These moments - these moments I can't and refuse to trade for a clean kitchen or a swept floor. And let's be real - those things will get done, but just not right now! 

I asked my mom club today of anyone remembers the days when you could deep clean your house and it would last all week. Haha. It's so laughable now!! I still catch myself thinking, "oh if I do this today I won't have to tomorrow..."  Um. Yeah right. Not only tomorrow but probably 5 more times at least today!! 

Too great!! Gotta love mom life ❤️ 

So anyway. None of that is the point of this post. Haha. Go figure. 

My friend MaLyn posted the cutest quote today: "a daughter is just a little girl that grows up to be your best friend". My sweet Harper is already one of my very best friends!!! Seriously. She knows when I'm sad when no one else does. She knows when I need a hug. She can make me laugh like no other (except maybe her daddy). And she's just so fun!!! I can spend every second of every day with her and miss her if we are apart for 2seconds. 


Today we had a mommy/Harper date after church. Daddy had to go to work (have I mentioned how thankful I am for a hard working husband???!!  He makes my dreams come true on a daily basis. DAILY!). So we headed to lunch. We just had so much fun!! The bbq place by our house has kids eat free Sunday's, so it was a no brainier!! We grabbed ice cream after we ate them headed to the thrift store next door (& scored her a new pair of nikes - practically brand new - for $2!!). She fell asleep before we left the parking lot. So I grabbed a little Starbucks and now we are cuddling and just having the best day!! 

I'm so excited to have another daughter. It's no secret- I've blogged before about how I always thought I'd have a home full of boys - but God knew exactly what I needed. 

{preparing for Hayden..}

So Saturday, Harper and I headed out to the craft store across the street and hit up the major sale they were having.  I got the cutest fabric to make fun crafts for their room!  I'm not 100% sure what I'm making... but I have time.  Hayden won't completely move into their room for a few months after she's born. But... I'm excited none the less.

I actually don't really like making crafts.  ha. go figure.  But I do love making things for my little girls!! Plus... I can make it exactly like I want it.  So that's always a plus too!  Rob teased me, when I was pregnant with Harper - because I made everything for her nursery, he said I should make more and sell them.  um. no thank you.  this mama doesn't have time for that! maybe one day, when my girls are bigger and I have more free time on my hands, I'll actually enjoy it.

But.  Anyway.  Rob had also moved boxes of Harper's baby clothes down to our garage out of storage last week.  So today, we went through them and threw them in the washer.



I cried.  Like was super emotional.  I can't believe my Harper was ever that small!!! She's growing so fast!  She kept asking me if I was ok, ha!  To which I would respond, yes baby, mommy is just sad because you are growing up so fast.  She laughed.  every time! Stinker!

She sat, trying to make all the baby hats fit on her head and trying to get the baby shoes on her feet.  It was adorable.

Although, she just woke up from her nap saying, "harpers! not baby's!  HARPERS!"... not nothing in particular, but still.  yikes!  hopefully this transition isn't too hard. 

Later on, we then went to Target to register for a few things.  What do you register for when you're having a second girl in the same season?... basically what you now realize, as a second time mom, what you really need... diapers.  wipes.  necessities.  When my sister in law asked if she could throw me a shower - I initially told her I didn't think we needed one.  But then she began explaining how all of our family and friends want to celebrate with us, and maybe we could just do a sprinkle... or a diaper shower.  & that sounded perfect!  because, really - no matter how much you have for a baby already - that doesn't count diapers, diaper cream, new bottles, etc... So fun!  And of course, target's free gift never disappoints... plus the added discount right before the baby is born is great!

1.02.2016

{milestones}

Every night when Harper goes to bed, she gives me a hug and kiss and tells me good night. Her daddy is awesome. He puts her to bed every night. It's their thing. They have a couple of special books they read every night, they pray together, and sing. It's adorable. And melts my heart daily.

But. Tonight. 

She hugged me. Kissed me. And my jaw hit the floor as she said "night-night Hayden!! Wuve you!!"  

This mamas heart. It's so proud and so emotional! My big girl!!! 

We've done a lot of preparing for Hayden today and have talked a lot about her, so I know that is why it was no biggie for her - no prompt. All on her own. 

Oh my precious girl 💜

{resolutions}

Ok. Honestly I never make resolutions. I think they're setting yourself up for failure. 

But this year - I'm gonna give it a try. 

I have a bad habit of letting people anger me. And really that's what it boils down to. I let them. 

Our friends had a deep conversation on New Year's Eve. You know. The 2am kind. Ha! But there was a lot of wisdom in it. 

The fact that when we get upset with others it is almost always a reflection of insecurity or issues within ourselves. Ouch. So true. 

I tend to care too much - too much about things that really shouldn't matter or that are none of my business. 

So. My goal is to change this. It goes a long with our word of surrender and being fruitful and limiting my time on social media. 

I'm going to focus on my family - our girls. Our friends. Our relationships. And really, everything else can just fall into place. 

Pray for me friends!! It's time to fully enjoy the life God has so greatly blessed me with - worry less about others and focus on God. 

Did any of you make resolutions? Do you normally? I pray discipline for you as you tackle them!!! ❤️


1.01.2016

{surrender}

Every year we, along with our amazing friends, ask God to give us a vision for the year. This is typically one word, one focus for the year that we hear God whispering in our hearts.

In example, our word for 2014 was JOY. God showed us joy, reminding us to enjoy the season we were entering- parenthood. And oh my goodness what an enjoyable year it was!!! 

Our word for 2015 was GROWTH. I remember blogging last year how it kind of scared me. It was a challenging word. And, well - 2015 was SUCH a year of growth! ... Personally, in our marriage and in our family - literally as well as externally and visually. And also internally. 

Harper turned one. My cousin passed away. We transitioned from cosleeping to Harper sleeping in her own room. We were blessed with a new car. Our niece got married and we traveled to MO for her wedding. We found out we were expecting and then discovered we had a miscarriage. We went on a 'stay-cation' to Denver and wrapped it up with a little marriage get away- our first night away from Harper. We found out we were expecting Hayden - and pregnancy fear crept in. I quit my job to stay home with our girls. We started attending a new church.  We made it through the first trimester and finally pregnancy joy began.  I started serving in ministry at our church a few hours a week. We found out we were having a girl. We celebrated 5 years of marriage. We traveled to CA for a much needed family vacation and saw many friends and family. The holidays began and life flew by. 

2015 we cried a lot, but we laughed even more. We were challenged in our marriage and as parents, but God's wisdom and grace prevailed. We fell even more in love with one another and grew closer together and to God. 

As Rob and I began talking about what God was showing each of us for 2016, we were mostly in agreement. That 2016 would be a year of focusing on God, weeding out distractions and concentrating on our family. Completely surrendering to Gods plan for our family, to His wisdom. Our goal is for our family to be fruitful. 

So our vision for 2016 is SURRENDER.

full surrender is a bit scary, but it is what God has asked of us. We are so excited for 2016!! 

We rang in the new year with our best friends! We all got to sit around, talk about the year as well as the upcoming year - share our words with one another and talk about the word we had shared with one another last year. I love our friends and the ability to be so transparent with one another! We then prayed over each other and allowed the Holy Spirit to lead us as we wrote one another a heart felt message. It was a beautiful evening!! Rob's parents also offered to watch Harper, so around 9 they came by and picked her up for a sleep over!... So we actually made it past midnight, ha!  My very pregnant self was quite tired the next day - but it was so worth it!  It was a great New Years Eve!

And when your friends own a photography business.... of course they set up a photobooth!! SO much fun....



 Today, we slept in!  Then got up, got around, and went and picked up our princess.  Then we went and met Matt, Leah, & kids, as well as Andy and Glorie for donuts, then headed over to their house for more breakfast and games while the kids played and played! Then we headed back to our house for nap time - mommy's and Harper's.  It was a wonderful first day of 2016!