{thankful 2015}

I have so much to be thankful for this year!!! I'm thankful for my God & the grace He continues to give me!

I'm thankful for my husband. That he works so hard and loves our family so well!

 I'm thankful for my Harper. She brings me so much joy and love! 
I'm thankful for my growing baby belly!! I cannot wait to meet this little one! I'm enjoying her little active kicks all day long! 

I'm thankful for our health and for the good health of our parents & grandparents! 

I'm thankful that even though my family is spread across the nation, we will be thinking of one another, and all thanking the One who has blessed us immensely!! I'm thankful for our warm, cozy home! & all the wonderful memories and growing we do here! I'm thankful for our friends and the beautiful community we get to do life with! I'm so thankful for this new season of life and where God has brought us! We all have so much to be thankful for!!! Enjoy your time with family and friends!!


{little kicks and kisses}

As Harper and I are cuddling this morning, she is laying her little head on my baby belly, gently rubbing and kissing her little sister. 
She must have woken little sister up, because she very quickly started kicking Harper. The first time Harper was actually able to feel her and knew what it was ❤️ 
My heart is melting!!!  
Love these little precious, treasured moments!! 



Ok friends... I usually don't "reblog"often, but our dear friends over at Courageous Love just blogged about our friendsgiving this past weekend! it was on my "to blog about" list and well... Autumn said it better than I ever could ♥ Check it out: Friendsgiving ♥ I'm so thankful for these friends of ours!!!


{life before being a mama}

Rob and I often joke that our kids probably won't get away with anything. I can smell alcohol, weed, tabacco smoke a mile away. Basically anything they shouldn't be doing my mommy senses are already in tune. Or it could be I've been there done that... Or at least been around it enough to know about it.
There are a lot of things in my past I'm proud of. ... Some details not so much. But I have lived a life that over all I am SO proud of!
As I read an article shared by scary mom on Facebook ... I won't share because it has some crazy choice language for effect and, well that's not me anymore.
Anyway, I could relate. Like a lot!!! More than I'd like to admit! 5 things your kids don't know about you.
And then I got to #5 and here came the tears!!!
5. I used to dream of you. Before I uttered my {first curse word} or took my {first drink}, before I knew anything else I’d ever want in my life, I knew I wanted you. The idea of you, of my own family, it was always the dream. In some strange, cosmic way, I was your mama before I was your mama. You were always meant to be mine, and I was always meant to be yours. Yes, you changed some things about me. But you gave me the most precious gift in return. You made my dream come true. And for that I'd give the rest up.
It's truly amazing to me the path life takes us on to get to where we are and to where we are going.  That "dream", that dream is what kept me going so many times when I was at my lowest.  The dream of my family!
I am so thankful to my savior!  That He knew my dream.  He placed it in my heart. and He continued to discipline me to reach that dream!


{pregnancy & life at almost 23 weeks}

It’s here!!! I don’t want to jinx myself, but the part of my pregnancy that I remember with Harper is finally here with this little one. I FINALLY can say I’m enjoying my pregnancy!!

I told Rob last night, you know – I’m actually enjoying things now! Granted I am so ready to hold this precious little one in my arms, but I’m trying so hard not to wish away time!
We have been talking names – a lot!!! We have a top three that we actually agree on. Who knows if we will actually pick one of those or not. But shocker – my precious FAVORITE name isn’t on that list of three. Ha! I stuck to my guns a bit more with “Harper” but with this one, maybe it’s because I’ve watched Rob be a dad for almost two years now – but I want us both to LOVE the name. There are so many things we love about our top three!! I’m tempted to share, but there’s seriously a chance we won’t use any of them ha! I’ve found that I really like “e” names and “m” names this pregnancy!! I can’t wait to name her tho! To Rob it isn’t as big of a deal. His perception is that we have 4 more months. But to me, this little one has been growing inside of me since July!!! And now that she is so active and is such a huge part of my day to day, I really want to give her a name.  It is on Rob’s heart that this little one is going to be powerful, a leader, and protector! Where we just kept feeling “joy” with Harper, which is SO accurate, this one is so different!!! A good different!!

We get to see her through an ultrasound before too long! I can’t wait!! She will be a full month “older” than Harper was when we did her anatomy scan. I’m excited to see the difference.
The farther along in this pregnancy we get, the more similarities I’m seeing. Even the little kicks are so much like her big sisters! I’m definitely carrying her a little lower than Harper, but size wise I’m a little smaller in picture comparisons which is crazy to me!
No crazy cravings, besides Starbucks!! These holiday drinks are getting me!!! Holy calories!! Ha! And I’m really looking forward to pumpkin pie today at our “friend thanksgiving”!  Besides that, I’m loving grape juice and orange juice!!
Harper has been gently rubbing my belly and kissing baby sister. It’s really the cutest!!!
Time is flying!! And I know it goes by even faster through the holidays! I’m going to be in my third trimester before we know it!


{our daughters, love, and yes ....sex}

I know I've mentioned before that I always envisioned myself a mom of boys.  Well, here I am with a daughter and pregnant with our second daughter.  Does God have a sense of humor or what?!  Can I be honest for a second and share one of the many reasons I always thought I'd have wanted boys? ... love and sex.  As a female, my perception of how easy these areas are for boys made me want boys.  How am I possibly equipped to teach daughters about love and sex?!  Harper is not even two and I feel like I'm already going to fail miserably in this area!
It terrifies me to think of the day that we have to have "THE TALK" with our girls!  I hope and pray that Rob and I display a true, passionate, REAL love for them.  I pray that they will not be fooled by the lust that overtakes our world.  I pray that God will protect their hearts, helping them save their hearts for someone worthy of that heart, that will respect them in all ways.
As I was reading a mother's letter to her daughter about sex I couldn't help but feel incredibly blessed and encouraged.  Why?  Because my girls have a true love example in their Dad!  I am so thankful and overwhelmed that this many is my husband, the father to my precious little girls!
I am so thankful that my daughters will have their daddy as their first example of true love!
So here I am, another Thankful November post, thankful for my amazing husband... for the amazing father of my children!
** please take a moment to read the article I linked above.  It literally moved me to tears of thankfulness. 


{one of those days...}

So you know those days… Those days where you’re just in a funk? I honestly think it had a lot to do with the fact we were snowed in yesterday… Not that we leave the house everyday, but it just left me feeling a little stir crazy!!! & I needed an attitude adjustment pronto!
So thankfully, my sweet mother in law had noticed Kohls was having a pretty good sale today so she and my hubby sent me on an early birthday shopping trip! I grabbed my little sidekick, stopped for Starbucks, and went shopping. It was just what I needed! Harper was the perfect little coshopper, helping me pick out new boots and Christmas ornaments! This kid. She literally gave me advice as I tried on boots… “No mommy not those” vs “oh….. I like!!!” Haha. My little fashionista! Lord knows I need the fashion help ;)
We spent quite a bit of time just shopping and enjoying our time together. Then this evening her daddy took us out to dinner! Talk about a turn around in attitude and outlook!
So today I’m thankful that just because a day starts blah, it doesn’t mean it has to set the tone for the whole day!! So thankful for some special people in my life, including my little side kick ❤️


{21 weeks/21 months}

today I attempted to get a cute picture of the baby bump and Harper since the bump is 21 weeks this week and Harper is 21 months.... Well. I should've known better! We are both under the weather, look a mess, and well... She's 21 months haha. This is real life friends!!! I just had to share how funny these are! There's MAYBE a couple that are ok... Side note, what did we do before phone camera timers?...


{the differences...}

So I've shared before how unbelievably different this pregnancy is from my pregnancy with Harper! It's crazy different. It's funny, because even though we are expecting another little girl - it's as if from the very start she decided she was going to be completely different from her older sister. and I love that! Granted, I've often joked that if you could promise me kids like Harper I'd probably agree to tons of kids ♥

I was thinking about it last night as I laid in bed, nauseated as could be... yes at 21 weeks I still get surprise nausea hits. It's just wonderful, ha! I was thinking about how I maybe had one or two times of nausea when I was pregnant with Harper and that was in the very beginning of my first trimester. It got me to thinking... is it my mind set that is different? Is it actually the pregnancy? As I hear my doctor saying - no two pregnancies are alike, try not to compare.

I feel like when I was pregnant with Harper I had NO idea what being a parent would be like. Sure, I had my ideas - I grew up around kids, so I thought I knew what it would be like. But really, I had no clue. So really, the pregnancy itself was the best thing that had happened to me as a parent at that moment in time. It was awesome having a little one growing inside of me. I was annoyingly blissful (I've read my past blog entries and even I'm annoyed at my self, ha!... and also love that my clueless, naïve self loved Harper so much!).

But then she was born. They placed her in my arms for the first time... and then it began! THAT was the best moment! Then she nursed and THAT was the best moment! Then we took her home and THAT was the best moment.... flash forward to the first time she crawled, the first time she walked, the first time she said mommy... those are all "best moments"... greatly surpassing my pregnancy emotions with her! Every day and every second is a new bet moment as a mom. This morning, even at 5am when I heard her wake up... "mom! mommyyyyy!!! maaaaaaaaaa!!!" that was my hearts best moment of the day so far! Chances are this will be our last pregnancy. So even from the beginning I decided I wasn't going to wish it away. I was going to enjoy every bit of it. The kicks, the hiccups, the aches, the pains. But man. It's hard! Once you know how much joy is to come... you know how much happiness and just the amazingness that is to come when they place that baby in your hands... how can I not wish it away? Rob and I were talking about how we are over half way there now... 19 weeks left. And then joked if she is like her sister that means 17 weeks left. Then we both looked at one another! 17 weeks sounded so soon, haha! He was like but we don't have a name... to which I responded I KNOOWWWW!!! All of our friends know, he is driving me crazy with picking a name... crazy! ha! So that response was pretty comical! I am so excited to meet this little one!! March seems like an eternity away, but I also know how fast it goes. Not to mention how fast time goes after they're born... I don't look forward to the feeling of those fleeting moments x 2! But I do look forward to celebrating the differences and similarities! I'm so excited to see what those are... even down to the labor and delivery. I think like anything else, there are things I hope we can repeat and there are things that I know we've learned from and will do much different this time around. I'm sure that will continue as long as we are being called "daddy & mommy"! But oh, my heart... I'm not sure how there's room for any more love - but I can't wait! ♥


{starbucks, snow, & thankfulness}

so.  it’s that time of year friends!!! TONIGHT!!!
as much as it becomes pretty old after, oh I don’t know… MAY!… I love the snow, the winter, and just the magic of this season! and I swear having a little one that is just as excited is just amazing!  as we took our Christmas stuff out the other night… her face just continued to light up as her daddy continued to bring boxes up as she whispered and yelled “Chrissssmiieeee!!!” So adorable!!
Anyway.  So the snow. yes! so excited! we will see if it actually happens and if it actually sticks so it’s pretty! And for the first time in a long time, I’m not thinking… UGH! I have to drive all the way across town in the snowy, slick conditions! It definitely takes the joy out of the pretty snow, let me tell ya!  SO.SO SOOO very thankful for this new season of life!!
AND.  something else to be thankful for?… thank you groupon and starbucks for teaming up once again, to give me a discount on holiday drinks! ha!  with all this nonsense going on about the starbucks cups, I’m so happy to be supporting them in saying… WHO CARES!!! Do I think the cups are a little plain this year? sure… does it offend me as a Christian? NO WAY! I believe Candace Cameron Bure said it best:
“Starbucks War on Christmas? It’s a red cup, folks, Until Starbucks puts a baby Jesus or nativity scene on the cup while saying Merry Christmas, then pulls it because they say it’s offensive, let’s talk. I don’t remember Starbucks ever being a Christian company, do you?”
“A Santa, a snowflake, some holly, a polar bear, some jingle bells or plain red cups don’t define Christmas for me as a Christian. My relationship with Jesus does. I will joyfully sip on my Starbucks coffee, in a plain red cup, and instead of complaining about the lack of decorations, I will lovingly share the good news of Jesus Christ with friends and co-workers or anyone who’s willing to engage in conversation. Merry Christmas to all!”


{Christmas Cheer}

I am so thankful for my husband (see, warned you that I’d use this one a lot this month). I’m so thankful that he humors me in my Christmas craziness.
Picture him, tonight, head lamp on, heading out to our outside storage shed – all because at 6pm I decided I wanted to decorate. No complaints. I mentioned it and he went!
So now I sit, sipping on vanilla camomile tea with twinkle lights everywhere, in front of our fire place as he gets out little princess down for the night.

Sigh. I love twinkle lights!!!! And my husband ❤️


{memorable moments}

Thankful for memorable moments with my little girl!!
As we sit, in warm jammies, with a warm quilt, watching Anne of Green Gables. Her first time meeting Anne-with an E!!
I’m watching her amazement, as I remember mine as a little girl. And my heart is full.


my husband, my hero}

Today I am thankful for my husband. I’m sure this will be a repeat thankful offense this month.

But this week I’ve been so thankful for him literally coming home and rescuing me a lot this pregnancy. Lately it seems that I have all this energy to go, go, go & keep up with my little energy crazed adorable tornado then all of a sudden it’s gone and I’m depleted. Like can’t go. At all.
As I type he is downstairs with Harper, getting his new Xbox (spoiled ha! But really it’s a whole other story. This guy has been selling stuff on eBay, including his 360 to save up $ for this. So proud of him!!), letting her play and go crazy while I sit. Just sit. And maaaybe sip on some yummy hazelnut coffee ;)
This man. He blesses me. So thankful.


{our ultimate provider}

Today I am thankful, SOO very thankful as I’m reminded that God is our ultimate provider!
I know I’ve mentioned before that me getting to stay home with Harper the majority of the time was and is a HUGE leap of faith. We have never been budget people. We’ve always had enough and never really worried about a budget (we still need to get better at this). But man. Now every penny and then some is accounted for. But you know what?! We let go of our worldly fears and trusted that God would provide. I often tell myself … Repeatedly. “Today’s Manna.” (See exodus 16). Basically, God gives you what you need, when you need it. It is human nature to hoard it up, saving it for later. But really. It is for today that God provides. And tomorrow he will provide.
I have been reminded of this lately through the timely selling of our extra car. We had it listed on Craigslist for about a month and I knew when it was Gods timing for us to have the $ it would sell. And guess what. It did!
Again, today I was reminded of this. As a new season is starting, I was looking at Harper’s wardrobe thinking – man. She needs new clothes and shoes!!! I kept looking at thrift stores and my mommy sites and just hadn’t had any luck. Today, an old coworker’s fiancé text me saying she had a whole box of clothes for me – for Harper. A whole box of winter and summer outfits and a whole bag of winter and summer shoes!!!! Harper is so set!!!
Friends. God is so good. Even in the little, seemingly insignificant things. He is faithful!!!
I could go on and on with examples, like how He supplied money for dinner for a date night this past weekend. Even the seemingly small things friends. He’s there.
Sure does a heart good and I’m so thankful!!!


{thankful November}

One thing I love about November – blogging about what I’m thankful for – I’d like to say every day, but that’s not too realistic ;)
Today I am thankful for all the fun we’ve had this weekend!
Friday night we got to have a real grown up date night! Harper had a sleep over with Rob’s parents! A kid free 12+ hours!! We headed to our favorite gluten free restaurant down town and then to the philharmonic. It was a wonderful, relaxing evening. I woke up Saturday to a quiet house, which was sooo strange!! I loaded up Lilly in the car and headed to Starbucks then to pick up H… I missed her too much!!
Yesterday we had such a fun day!! Harper’s cousins came over in the afternoon to play a bit and the adults got to catch up. Then it was time to get ready for trick or treating!! Our church was having a trunk or treat … And I’m so thankful. It’s scary out there for an almost two year old! When did Halloween become all about the scary and not for just the fun of it?! Anyway, some of our dear friends met up with us at our church so our girls could “trunk or treat” together for a bit! It has become a little tradition. And I’m loving it!!
Harper didn’t last long. What is it about Halloween, toddlers, and melt downs?! She wanted to eat all the candy as it was being put in her bucket… And it was being put in by the handfuls!!!
So about 45 min in we called it a night. Then it was home to eat some treats and crash!
This morning, I was reminded how thankful I am for our church!!! The message today was just one of those that leaves you with your toes stepped on, your heart encouraged, and basically just wanting to do better!

After church Harper and I headed to Starbucks for Christmas cups and Christmas drinks!!! The Christmas bucket list for this year has officially started!

Tonight we head over to some friends for birthday celebrating!

It really has just been the best weekend. Not to steal the thankful thunder from the rest of the month, but so thankful for family, friends, and an awesome church family!!