pregnancy rants…

yep.  they are already starting, ha! my pregnancy rants!
so, just when my clothes (kind of) started fitting right again… really do our hips ever go back just the way they were?!  just when all the mommy new hair growth (all those wonderful sprigs EVERYWHERE!) finally started getting manageable.  we hit the repeat button! I really couldn’t be more excited! I can’t wait to hold our new little baby in my arms!!! that thought alone is getting me through this first trimester! haha.  so please understand, these rants are coming from a VERY grateful and thankful mama! I’m so blessed that I get to be a mama again!!! but… this first trimester… oy!
I mentioned in my last post that this pregnancy is SOOOO different than my one with Harper.  With Harper, I was one of those annoying “pregnancy is wonderful and enjoyable” people.  I’m hoping and praying I get there again in a few weeks… because really, my pregnancy with Harper was one of the most joyful times in my life.  I loved it!
This one.  This one has been so challenging already! the Nausea alone is enough to drive someone absolutely insane.  I feel like absolute poo most of the time.  Seriously. 24/7.  There are days, which I consider good days, where that nausea is more mild and I can definitely push through it and deal.  Then there are days or moments where it completely stops me! No fun I tell ya.  And the back pain and sciatic nerve pain…. all I keep thinking is, “this is just my first trimester!!! If my back is hurting this bad now, what in the world will it be like in a few months!”  Not to mention labor… I had AWFUL back labor with Harper, which is one reason, at least I’m blaming it on it, that I think I’m having this back pain now.
Anyway, all this to say….
My new stay at home mom gig/ working a lot less hours gig is NOT what I had anticipated! I pictured Harper and I doing lots of park days and Tot School (which we did start this past week), and just using up every second, and me loving it.
well.  it looks more like this…
I go into the church for just a few hours a week, mostly in the morning to help with some admin stuff – designing the bulletin (I get to play in publisher a lot, which I love!), doing sermon notes, putting together slides for Sundays.  It’s all really fun stuff – plus I get some adult, using my brain time – which for me is super necessary! Then I come home and play with my little, eat lunch, and then even if she isn’t ready I beg her for a nap! haha.  We then cuddle in bed, napping and/or watching a movie or sofia the first until her Daddy gets home around 3 and rescues me.  literally.
I honestly feel like the laziest bum of a mom and wife lately.  Plus since I’m not feeling well, I take mama bear to a WHOLE new level… at least the bear part! When you feel like you have to throw up every second of the day, well, you don’t really feel like being pleasant. Poor Rob! He’s been a trooper!!!
So here I am, praying this all goes by the wayside with the first trimester. I’m 12 weeks now, so fingers crossed – with in the next week or so, hopefully I start seeing some relief.
Soon- we will also find out the gender of our little one!! I can’t wait! So much to do if we are right and having a boy!! 💙
I will try to do a update (other than pregnancy) soon!! We’ve had so much going on!!!

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