good-bye 2013~

as we get ready to ring in 2014 tonight, i can't help but look back on 2013 and be... well, just flat out amazed and thankful!

God taught me a LOT in 2013. i feel like 2013 was a year He showed me how to let go of the small things in life, hold tightly to the meaningful, and how to wait - to wait, expectantly on Him, hopeful of His plan in my life... trusting and believing that His plan is the ultimate purpose for my life.  sure, i thought i believed those words to be true my whole life, but this year... this year it was put to the test... i had to live it! i learned i'm not in control (i'm sure i'll continue to learn this lesson my whole life, as i never QUITE get it)... i'm not in control of God. i'm not in control of Rob. i'm not even in control of Me to a certain extent! for a control-freak, this is always a lesson learned the hardest of ways. i learned to let go of expectations of  everything... unless it was the expectation of God's plan in my life. that is the only compass i should let rule my life. i've always considered myself to be a thankful person... it's pretty easy when one lives an abundantly blessed life.  this year, through some of the hardest days of my life, God showed me how to be thankful in the murk and the muck. that even on my darkest, lowest, saddest of days there is ALWAYS something to be thankful for. i learned it's ok to say no....to stop the glorification of busy. i've always been a homebody and would feel a bit guilty that rob and i aren't social butterflies.  this year i learned... that's ok! in fact, God doesn't call us to be busy! he calls us to be still... to enjoy his blessings, blessing others, and to spend time with him. so, it's ok to only say yes to plans once or twice a week...or not at all if we need us time! with that... i learned because we are both so comfortable just hanging out with one another... EVERYDAY, that we have to be intentional about making plans with our friends or we will go months without seeing them, which also isn't healthy! i've learned even more about grace. i need to give it graciously,  as well as i receive it. & once again, God showed me how strong i can be with His help...that some days you just have to get through and keep on living. this is also a lesson i've had to learn repeatedly! He also continues to show me, daily, how perfectly matched rob and i are. i'm not quite sure how i would've gotten through this past year with anyone else by my side...the blessing to be rob's other half is one i hope and pray i never take for granted!  & last but most definitely not least, i learned that even in the dark, God is working in the light... i just have to make a decision to join Him there, sit as his feet and receive the love he pours out on me daily!

i know without a doubt that 2014 holds different types of challenges for us... but we are so excited!! when i think of 2014, God keeps showing me the word JOY... that alone is so exciting to me!

Happy New Year!!!

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33 week update

we had a doctor's appointment today and it went well! Harper continues to measure perfectly! And i... without help of the lbs & lbs of see's candy and other goodies i've been inhaling, have only gained one pound since my last appointment, (thank goodness for good genes!).  i was a little nervous!!! all of our franchisees send us all kinds of yummy goodies... no will power here ;)  the nurse's exact words after weighing me, "well you're a tiny little thing, aren't you?"... i literally laughed in her face.  she started laughing, as she realized i do not feel tiny AT ALL! thank goodness she understood and didn't take offense. lately i've felt like an anaconda that's swallowed a pumpkin!!

our little gal is such a character already! as my doctor was measuring her/my belly and feeling around to see where she was located... she said, "aw and there's her little bottom", which was where it usually is - protruding out to the right of my belly button.  all of a sudden, as soon as my doctor said that, she started showing off and completely flipped, turning her bottom to the complete other side. we got a good laugh out of it... it was as if she was playing with us :) our doctor tells us at least once an appointment how feisty
Harper is and she continues to prove it each passing day! & i'm ok with that... because to me, that already means she is strong and a fighter!

we go back in a couple more weeks, and i will be tested for strepB... which i will classify as one of those "things no one tells you about pregnancy".... i'm sorry you're gonna swab, where?! HA! oh goodness! then our once a week appointments begin... so hard to believe! we have just a little over six weeks til our due date! it's even harder to believe that, according to my what to expect app, i'm carrying a baby around the size of a pineapple!!! my doctor warned me again today that i'm at the peak time for braxton hicks contractions... and i believe it.  all day shopping yesterday i'd have to stop and take a few deep breathes... they don't hurt, just uncomfortable.  i compare it to having an anxiety attack, but in your baby belly! can real contractions be that easy, please?! ;)

have a very Merry Christmas, everyone!!!

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32... a day away from 33 weeks!

whew... it's been a busy last couple of weeks! i'm not even sure how it is almost Christmas?! how did this happen? it has been kind of hard to get into the holiday spirit this year... granted my forced holiday spirit is probably more on the level of most people's "normal"... but none the less...
i think we are just so looking forward to what comes AFTER Christmas, that quite honestly, i'm just ready to get to that point!

here we are at 32weeks 6days...we have another doctor's appointment the beginning of next week. we have our pre-admittance appointment in a few of weeks. i'm looking forward to getting that done... at the time of the appointment i'll be 36 1/2 weeks, craziness.  baby girl is out of control! i think she is getting pretty cramped in there.  she *attempts* to stretch out often... pushing from one side of me to the other, leaving me saying "ouch"! she hasn't found my ribs yet, thank goodness... so i'd say she has some more room to grow.  the farthest her little feet kick up are just a couple inches above my belly button.  mostly the jabs i get are from, what i can only gather as, her bum... which sits right at my belly button! Harper really hasn't caused any discomfort for me herself... honestly, my discomfort these days comes from braxton hicks contractions, shortness of breath, my back/ribs/hips... the waddle has definitely set in!... especially right after i stand up from a sitting position.

when i first found out we were expecting, the one thing that i didn't want to happen... i didn't want to get fat arms. HA! i know, right?! of all things to worry about, that was top on my list... so rob bought me some small weights. i think i used them twice...yikes... sorry babe! but, thankful to say, so far so good on the arm department, oh goodness! that and my belly button were the two things i was a little hormonally ocd about.... so far so good on both! most women freak out about stretch marks... i honestly don't really care. if a few pop up in my last month, i'll be ok. ;)  so yep, no stretch marks yet; belly button is still there as an innie. really i can't complain... my pregnancy so far has been great! i will admit though, the last few nights i've been in tears at the discomfort/sleep deprivation combo. i don't do well with a lack of sleep, and by lack of sleep i mean i'm an 8hours minimum person! i know God is preparing me... i know, i know. thankful that harper does seem to already have her days/nights down.  she's a wiggle worm during the day, all day long... seems to LOVE the evening time when we get home and she hears her daddy's voice and mommy talk all high pitched to lilly and the cats ♥ then she settles right down with it's time to go to sleep.  she (or my hormones) have me up around 1am... i get up, use the restroom and then she's up for a little wiggle-wiggle hi mommy...then settles right back down.  this happens again when daddy's alarm goes off at 4:15.  then we fall back to sleep until my alarm goes off.  hoping and praying she's already getting on a schedule. it seems that way... it will be neat to see if it's for real.

at least a few times a day, i'm getting comments on how tiny i am but how big my baby belly is getting.  and really, its true.  i've stayed the same size all over except out front... the belly and the two girls up top ;)  really, it is getting almost odd... my frame is pretty small, but then there's this huge basketball under my shirt, HA! i'm still wearing some of my non-maternity clothes along with maternity... i'm SOOO ready to go shopping for new clothes... it's so hard to see all the deals and cute clothes and not buy any haha! and i'm so over shopping for maternity clothes... especially when i only have a month and a half at most left!

here are some random pictures from over the past week.... 

A red footed friend... visiting me at the Holiday Expo on Saturday ♥

Selfie at the Christmas Party ♥

our company goes all out!!! so fun!

us ♥

love this guy!

Our first round at the White Elephant... she also had a matching
husband, LOL. 

We got to celebrate this cutie on Sunday! Happy 3 years Levi!!

me... at 32 weeks and a couple days.

look what my secret santa got me!!!! eeee!!! 

Jack Frost visited us this morning, leaving a gorgeous sparkly white landscape!

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moments captured! ♥

my husband often makes fun of me because i take pictures of... EVERYTHING!! i kid you not. but there have been so many times that i'm so thankful to have captured certain moments.  sure, you can hold memories in your heart forever, but pictures also help ;)
i learned a long time ago that often times people get taken from our lives...i wish i had taken more pictures when i was younger!

i found some fun pictures from way back today... i truly love our past, present, & future! we have so much to be thankful for!!! ♥

miss her!

rockstar ;)

2006 ♥

2007...love these girls!!! 20 years of friendship going strong!

out in Newps. 

the girls... where else, vegas!

out in newport... 2008

family get together...2008

back when Lilly wasn't lazy and fat, ha! 2008 ♥

dinner with the family, 2008 ♥

wish we could all be together this year!!!

Vegas, 2009 ♥ again, wish we could all
be together for Christmas!

scavenger hunt with our friends, early 2009

Vegas 2009

decade party, 2009

Matt & Leah's wedding, August 2009

making Lilly's treat jar, September 2009

Lilly Bee ♥

Delora Bee ♥

Rockband/Halloween Party

Celebrating New Years with the family 2009-10

visiting the Grandparents... 2008?

Rock Band with Andy!

on our way to one of our many Hotel Cafe concerts

visiting the T's ♥
DTF... ♥

Typical evening in... 2009?

love this picture!!!... 2007

these guys! haven't changed a bit! 2007

us ♥ Fall, 2009
LOVE this picture! I miss Crystal Cove!
Pei Wei with the family in AZ ♥
Christmas in MO... 2009?!

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to all my thirty somethings out there... this is for you.

it's true.  if you aren't thirty... one day, you will wake up and wonder what happened to your twenties.  your life will be filled with stories of "remember when" or "remember that night...".  you will discover that all of those wild and crazy adventures that you normally bounced right back from the next day, you will now wake up and wonder what the heck you were thinking.  and like this article says... seriously, it happens over night. and don't get me started on becoming a light weight or how weekend plans of "apple picking" seem so fun but that's ALL you can plan in one weekend... after all, you need some time to recover before Monday rolls around.  sleeping in is 9am, if you're lucky. and really... we have to have it all together by 40, right?! and yes, when someone asks your age, you really truly have to stop and think... and sometimes do the math... and then become quite shocked that you aren't 25 anymore! sigh.

thus is life. ... & might i say, the good life ♥ i adore these days.

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